i think ive fallen into a downward spiraling trench of incredibly deceptive depression.
some days i just want to stay in bed and say fuck the world, but i cant. ive all this shit that needs to be done everyday.
i lost my car last thursday and havent been able to get around at all. missed class and my physical therapy appointment today because i couldnt get myself to ask for a ride from my uncle or even attempt to get on the bus to go.
fuck.
i did go to work, however.
glad it was damn slow because i didnt feel like catering to ppl all night. had a couple beers when i got off and then walked home.
walking.
i forgot what that was all about cuz lately all ive been doing is driving from point a to point b. literally. home to work to school back home. repeat…everyday.
why couldnt my life turn out the way i wanted it to? why is everything so fucked?
whatever i guess.
